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 So im John, a normal teenage boy. I love hanging out with my friends, writing songs, watching movies and listening to music. My favorite type of music is Pop/R&b but i like all types of music. My favorite movie at the moment is Juno. I'd have to say my favorite type of movies is horror. I love horror movies, even tho some of them kinda scare me haha! But anything elce that u wanna know feel free to ask =]
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so since its winter i decided to change the layout for the site. Hope ya like it. And ill prolly be updating alot more here too. |
Posted By John on 06 Dec 2008 | |
| To Blind To See | ||
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heres a poem i wrote today -------------- you were there when i use to need you but then u found him and forgot about me you were there when people were so crule but now ur to blind to even see you were there when i'd loose my best friend and you use to comfort me you'd make me happy, and make the pain end but now ur to blind to see you were there when i'd cut myself too you said tht its not where to be you told me to quit and listen to you but now ur to blind to even see you were there when i died last night you said that you really miss me i'll see you again, dont worry mom cause now you finally see |
Posted By John on 06 Sep 2008 | |
| school? | ||
so for anyone tht goes to this site....most of you prolly start school this week, or have already started school. And i wanted to wish u all luck haha!! have fun sitting in class and enjoy having homework. While your in class imma be in bed sleeping haha. But good luck 
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Posted By John on 25 Aug 2008 | |
| It Really Pisses Me Off!! | ||
| You know what really irratates me is when people are at my house and they boss my around. It really pisses me off. This one friend of mine always bosses me around whenever they're at my house and it makes me really mad. Like i'll be listening to something on my computer and they'll go and yell at me telling me to turn it down. Its fucking bullshit, they dont see me going to their house and bossing them around. | Posted By John on 17 Jul 2008 | |
| Long Time... | ||
| So alot has been going on since i last updated. I moved out of my moms about a week ago. Well actually it has been exactly a week. Me and her boyfriend got into a huge fight and i decided i dont wanna stay there and put up with him putting me down all the time. So i now live with my dad and i'm glad that i do live w/ my dad. I get to see my dad, sister and friends more often now and that makes me really happy. So it really sucks that i havnt been updating this site as much as ive wanted. But ive been extremely busy lately and too much stuff has been going on. So i'll try to update more often now =] | Posted By John on 15 Jun 2008 | |
| Get Your Hands Away Son! | ||
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sooo....i wrote this song like 5 min ago. And its about this person trying to get w/ you and have sex. It was inspired by this guy who wants to get w/ my sister. So it was funnn to write. Its called "Your On A Hunt" and im pretty happy w/ how it turned out. Here is the first verse from it =] Hope ya'll like it =] hey watch your hands, get them away son is that your plan, to have me then run just walk away, your not gunna get it hear what i say, do you get the hint |
Posted By John on 12 May 2008 | |
| Theres A Stranger In My Life! | ||
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So im making supper for my mom today. I'm going to cook a chicken and idk what to make with it haha! I'll have to ask a few people. Or whoever views this can post a comment and give me an idea on what to make. Just click the link below this that says "Comment" and leave a comment. But anywayzzzzz...i wrote this very personal song. Its a song thats about me and a very good friend of mine. Its about how you lie to the point where you don't know who you are anymore. This is one of the hardest songs ive ever written before. Mostly because i had to write it to reflect someone elce to. So i wasnt sure how to put their feelings into the song. So it was tough but i think its pretty good. I may post it up on here but not really sure yet. OHH OHH OHH i also gott sum news! I did a music video. But when i upload it only a couple people are gunna be able to watch it. It shows off a dirtier side of myself than i usally show in my videos. I'm dacing in my boxers, licking a knife, and sucking on string cheese. So yeah its alot different from what i usally do. But overall its a good video and i had fun making it. Thats what the pont was of me to do that video was to have fun. So for the people who will be able to see it, hopefully they'll like it
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Posted By John on 11 May 2008 | |
| Breakdown | ||
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So i wrote this on Wed. Night! I havnt had the time to post it so now that im home i decided to post it. ---------------------- I really wanna cry right now. I'm listening too 'In The Pictures" by Raven. And its making me think about all the fun times in my past. I had the time of my life when i was younger. And in the blink of a eye they were gone. My parents split up and eventually got divorced, i lost a girl that i was in love with, and i had to move away from people that i became good friends with. I lost all that and it was hard to loose all that and people dont realize it! That was the reason i had become depressed, and started cutting. Nobody realizes how it felt for me. My mom didnt care how i felt. She just thought about herself and didnt care about me and my sisters point of view on the situation. She left my dad because of his drinking, for what? To get with a loser who drinks 100 times more than my dad. I was a very happy boy while growing up. Then after all this i had become very depressed. I started flunking school, started cutting, barley eat, and didnt want to talk to anyone. Then when i was 15 i found out that the guy i thought was my dad turned out not to be. It hurt to find that out and people didnt think it hurt. When you grow up and think someone is your dad and turns out not to be, its the worst feeling in the world. It hurts to think about all my times when i was younger. I look a pictures of my memories and i get all teary eyed. My friendships with everyone died. If i could go back and change it all i would. I'd give everything i have up in a heartbeat just to go back to how things use to be. Thats all i have to say....hopefully people understand how i feel.... |
Posted By John on 11 May 2008 | |
| I Betcha I Am Horny! | ||
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Im actually not horny haha! Im either having a minor asthma attack or heartburn. I'll find out in a bit. Cause if i start having trouble breathing then its a asthma attack! I hope its just heartburn. So yeah it actually was just heartburn. Cause i ate 2 tumz and it took the pain away. I actually hate how my heartburn and asthma are alike. Cause they both cause the same pain in my chest and its very annoying. Cuz i get all scared thinking its a asthma attack. But w/e asthma sucks ppl! My asthma attacks last only about 20 min. Sometimes they can last up to a hour. I mean that may not seem like its that bad but trust me it is. For me when i have asthma attacks i cant breathe AT ALL! I only get one breath out at the least every min! Its very scary. Like people tell you that your suppost to remain calm but its hard when you cant breathe! One time at like midnight i started having a asthma attack i started bawling and told my mom "Mom i cant take this anymore" and i was scared that i was going to die! Cause like when it happens all thease thoughts run through your head, like stuff that you wanna do with your life and all that stuff. So its like 'i dont wanna die yet' and you sit there and pray to god that you don't die. But anyway Wed. is when imma do the first video for my mini series thingy. Well i actually prolly wont do it till thursday or friday. Bcuz my sister needs to learn the lines. I got all my lines down. It took me awhile to learn them. And whats funny is I FRIGGIN WROTE THEM haha! But anywayzzzz imma go. I have to finish cleaning my room! 
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Posted By John on 06 May 2008 | |
| Friggin Awesome! | ||
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Geezzzz...im like obsessed with this CD i got! Its full of r&b songs with a awesome beat that i can totally dance to. And thats my kinda music! Its by Raven Symone! YESSSS! But its a pretty awesome CD so yeah i suggest you guys go buy it! You can hear some of the songs on youtube. Ya'll who view this site should go check them out. My favorites are Anti Love Song, That Girl, Girl Get 4, What Are You Gonna Do, Stupid, & Hollywood Life. So check e'm out! I MEAN IT! Off to another story...i was pretty sick yesterday. I was in bed pretty much all day thats how bad it was! When i'd get up to go to the bathroom i'd feel all woosy and i threw up a couple times too. It sucked! But i feel much better today so yay!! Oh and i got some news about the series thing. My sister agreed to do it! My mom said ok too but she cant really remember the lines! I kinda am too haha! AND I WROTE THEM!! IDk when imma start doing the recording for them yet. I'll prolly do it when i go into my dads....ill keep yall updated until then PEACE! |
Posted By John on 05 May 2008 | |
| A Mini Series!! | ||
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So i have this idea to make a min youtube series. Its going to be like a bunch of comedy scenes that im going to make myself. Like the scripts and all will be made by me. I'm going to have other people in it too. So far from the scripts i have written, my sister and my mom are going to be in it. Which is going to be kinda fun. I know my sister will be up for this but i'm not to sure about my mom. Like my moms lines are really small so they shouldnt be to hard to remember. In the one script she only has 1 line but in this one titled "Mother Theresa" she has about 5 or 6 lines. I hope my mom and sister will do this. I'm like 90% sure my sister will cause she loves doing videos, and she also wants to be a actor (like me). So this will give both me and her a chance to practice our acting. Me, im really excited about this. Since ive never directed anything or done any type of video that has more people than me, im pretty nervous. I think it should be fine though. Cause alot of people tell me im funny. I can always make people laugh and i love making them laugh. I'm not sure when i'll be working on these. The first one im doing is called "Mickey Mouse Kicked My Ass", and its well self explanatory. Oh and if anyone has any ideas for videos for me to do, email me at solitudex49@gmail.com or Blaheffthis@aol.com =] |
Posted By John on 03 May 2008 | |
| WHOO OPEN!! | ||
ok so ive been working on this like all day! And it was not friggin easy! The whole getting this cutenews shit up and everything was friggin hard! Espically with dial-up! But i did it! Everything is up!! Eccept the about me and all that junk. But ill get to it some other time! Its to late right now to do it!  and im still pissed that whenever i think im done with the site something goes wrong and i have to fix it! Cuz im a friggin prefectionest! Honesely i am! If i see something doesnt look right, i have to fix it right that moment! But w/e imma go to bed. Thx to all who view this site! <33
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Posted By John on 02 May 2008 | |